The Book That Was 2012

Today I reviewed the events that happened in my life written in The Book That Was 2012. As I read through the pages of yet another chapter of my life, I discovered things about me that were both inspiring and unsettling. I figured that even I get surprised with my actions sometimes.

2012 has taught me how to ask forgiveness, especially to the ones that I have wronged before. These persons forgave me and I was able to find a little measure of peace which gave me an ultimate high. Last year I also faced my fear and had a pap smear. Going to the doctor and having some invasive test upsets me so, but I overcame, and with that, I also had a little measure of peace and will never be afraid of pap smears again.

I realized that I have read a lot of life-changing books last year, most of them were Newberry Winner awardees like The Giver and The Hundred Dresses. Unfortunately, I should have also read the Bible, which I seldom did, and I think I failed God in that aspect. I also was able to watch a lot of movies last year, like The Avengers, The Hunger Games and Rurouni Kenshin, but now I realize that I should have done more important things, like learning how to drive a car, or learning how to swim.

2012 has given me carnal temptations which I have fought valiantly. I realized that the devil will try to oppress you with these kind of things, but I remained faithful, because I fear God and I have love. But I also had moments of weakness and because of that I remember that I would just sit in a corner and cry uncontrollably because of my low self-esteem and self guilt.

I have learned how to let go of someone I love so that he would be able to achieve his dreams and have self-fulfillment and self-respect. I realized that letting go was hell at first, but it gets easy with time.

Reading The Book That Was 2012 has made me realize a lot of things that I need to improve on, like my patience for example. There were a lot of things that I accomplished, but I realized that I could have accomplished more. This 2013, I will strive to be better. I will learn from my mistakes and continue to do the good things that I have done before. I will learn new things and spend more time on things that matter. I can't wait to write my next chapter.